Control

How is it that one little word can mean so much? Can cause so much excitement and so much stress? There are many things in my life that I want to be in control of but have come to realize that the only way I'm going to stay sane is to give up. If you really know me you know that while I'm care free and can be pretty indecisive, on the inside I need to be in control. It's funny that no matter who you are there is a point at which you can do no more and you must let go. I'm there. I can't move forward unless I fully give up. I can't lie. It's hard. I'm scared and I have to constantly remind myself to not think about giving up but reminding myself that I'm moving forward. So here I go....
    God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; 

     courage to change the things I can;
     and wisdom to know the difference.

     Living one day at a time;
     Enjoying one moment at a time;
     Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
     Taking, as He did, this sinful world
     as it is, not as I would have it;
     Trusting that He will make all things right
     if I surrender to His Will;
     That I may be reasonably happy in this life
     and supremely happy with Him
     Forever in the next.
                 Amen.

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