Change

I have never been one for change. Honestly I'm not to keen on it. I am a creature of habit. I like having a routine, a schedule, a plan. But lately I've been finding that I want change, I want something new. I feel like I'm stuck. I know want I "think" I want out of life and that I'm ultimately on the path to get there. But at the same time I want something to change. I feel like I'm in a rut. That my life is just moving and while I'm actively participating in it I'm not really living. I want something to change. I want something to make me passionately want to live every day rather then just going through the motions. My head tells me that this is stupid, that a plan is what will get me where I want to be, but my heart tells me that this is no way to live, that it doesn't make memories it just makes days. And you know what? I want this. I want the want to jump off a cliff, fall out of an air plane, raft down a river, I want the exhilaration of living a life I want. I want a river that produces ripples, that leaves an impact on my life, that produces more ripples. I want my life to be mine rather than me just living one. The only thing is I'm not sure how to get there.  I have an idea but, 

leaving behind a life, no matter how insignificant it seemed, is still leaving behind a part of you.  

How Do You Know?

When do you know it's time? Time to tell someone some thing that will change their life? Wether it's good or bad how do you know? Is it better to have them and them not know? Or for them to know and you not have them? I really want to tell you, I just wish it wouldn't be so huge.

It's Time

The Worlds Biggest Lie

Missing You A Whole Awful Lot ♥

Take Care Up There

Don't Forget I'm Here

I read these other blogs and I find cool that the view base is so large. Hell some blogs I've seen generate   1000s of views a day, I thought it would be cool if I started one and thats what happened. I was so wrong. Its cool knowing this blog is my own little nitch in the internet. From what I know other than a few people no one knows I'm here. It's my place to vent to think to write. And its just me.

Its funny really when you meet someone, your first though tisn't "How am I going to live without this person?" You see you don't think about how much a person is going to mean to you when you first meet them but when the day comes that you don't have them it sucks. When you go from seeing and talking to someone everyday to not at all, its life changing.

Days are long, busy, tiring and fast. People say that time goes by fast and years are gone before you realize but how many people actually sit there in the middle of one of those busy days and admire it for what it is? Fast paced, busy and just maybe exactly what you wanted. Just remember the people that aren't aways in the picture, write down when you've made plans, make it up to them when you forget and read the letters they've left you. Don't let the busyness and monotony of everyday life make you forget what makes your life yours and the people in it.

"And If I told you I loved you would it change what you see?" -The Avett Brothers